27.5.16

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beresford, new brunswick
spring 2016

summer sun rose, with humid air,
pearly blanket that holds on to every bit of heat.

we had no spring to speak of,
not the ones with cherry blossoms scattered on street,
for each step to be dyed pale pink.

nevertheless, the leaves came.
they unfurl, grow, towards the sun,
unafraid, no waiting, certainty.

tulips will fade soon, 
lights long and hot, water glass covered in dew.
mirage. on the road. cars. houses. people.

departing soon, to east to east to east
where i will chase the sun,
of stories, not of mine, but to make it mine.

but for now,
im a pool of blue.
a small puddle of blue.
but it will lift, like a fog,
once i am airborne.

if you blinked you wouldve missed spring.
like a bubble, it was, this year.
started so tiny, filled up with hope and air,
and it popped. gone.
it was beautiful.
and it wont ever return again.

when i go back to my heart to revisit,
it will change,
e v e r y t i m e 

fallacy of memory.

but i will take a small piece,
melt it on my tongue,
like a small piece of chocolate,
bitter and sweet.
it will be beautiful.

an ending is a necessity
and i am slowly marking it.
as if
defining where the sky ends
and water starts,
as i saw
on empty beach of east coast,
where sun turned away and sunk into
the myriads of clouds.

a period.
close.
closing.
ending.
starting.



8.5.16

short thoughts on mothers day

mother wanted to sleep.
i clearly did not.

mother sang to me.
i cried and fidgeted.
colicky baby.

mother wanted to teach me.
i wanted to teach her.

mother wanted me to say yes.
i said nothing, stormed out.

mother left me a message.
in frustration, i pressed '7' immediately.
then regretted as soon as i hung up the voice mail.
i call back with smile, with smidgen guilt.

i give her advice.
i buy her iron supplements.
i gently pull her away from extra groceries,
as cart is full and so is my fridge.
she cant stop though.

what if

mother wasnt there
to tell me all the things im doing wrong
of the importance of my wacky haircuts
inquiring about my incomes
as musicians always seem to be in brink of debt
packing me way too much food
that i leave half of it in the car

what if

i think of calling her up
texting silly cartoon emoticons

and nothing came back

one day


time will flow and i will have to look inside
to find her
that she is there
may be quiet

as

always


as mothers always are
there