termination and continuation
they say: 21/90. takes 21 days to freshly form a habit, and additional 90 days to make it a life change. 15124. days with granny. last night, i flash thought: should call her. havent called her in awhile. then flash reaction: that is no longer necessary. 8. days since she's left. most of the time, it takes much time to unlearn a 'thing,' whatever it is. and sometimes, it is quite impossible. i still think of texting gabe at times. i guess i will still think of calling granny for awhile. expectations help us build a frame in our minds. and we hold onto those expectations, because what we know is just what we think we know, especially in the matters of life. it's nice to have contrary stuff, just to peg things into place, as our minds wander, make stuff up, and justifies everything without even a slight consultation with consciousness. then- we adjust. we all do. sometimes we resist. sometimes we just dont know. i will find out, how this is all going to turn out. havi